that's me, standing in the mirror

Raise your hand if you hate getting in front of the camera?  Yup, me too.  For as much time as I spend with a camera in my hand, I am still apprehensive to step in front of that camera myself.  And despite my deep love of preserving our moments, I am mostly absent in these moments.  


Like most mommas out there, I have insecurities when it comes to seeing myself in photos.  I fixate on the way I look rather than how my kiddos will feel when they see these photos.  I keep forgetting that when my little look back on these photos that they will see a momma that loved them deeply, and not someone who could have looked a little better with a few more hours of sleep.  

Being content is a huge core value in our house…and it is time I start listening to the words I am peaching to my own.  Does being content mean falling in love with those deep squint wrinkles in between my nose?!?!  Ya, well that is never gonna happen.  I might not become BFFs with those groves on my face, but I can learn to love the season of life I am in right now.  I can push down the insecurities I have and show my crew of 4 who I am, in front of and behind the camera.